I have a sad feeling

Ok so this is a little update on me, my art work and my preparation for my final exams

First off me so how am I and by the way this is going out to ALL of my watchers. I have to behonest I'm depressed I want to go to the doctor but I know what my mother would say and I'm also worried that I'm slowly going mad I like being British but I'm just so depressed I mean I remember each time I woke up I felt like I was waking up in Airstrip One form 1984 (read the book) and my tutor group.............I once liked them with blinded confidence but now I hate them...............I hate them all I even said to my mum "I want to kill them all" inhuman thoughts everyone has them.

Now one of my watchers and I can say my friend B1BattleDorid said "Whats happened to you're SFM and Gmod pictures?" well this is what I get for using my old dads laptop. FUCKING BUSTED! apparently Steam and its apps can only work on a multi core processor and I went to Curry's PC World to have a look and in order to get that type of computer I need

£1000 and in US dollars thats $1246.79 Yep THAT MUCH FOR A FUCKING COMPUTER well I have over 200 but not over 300 yep this will take a lot of time

And now for my final exams. What a piss show it hardly feels like Im ready and I hardly feel like noting is going into my head and I feel that my chances of a good future look bleak